《思雨》

窗外下起了绵绵细雨

细细的雨丝交织成了一片朦胧的雨帘

把远处的建筑物覆盖在那凄美的迷离里

雨丝交汇处，朦胧得像一首未完成的诗

你我之间仿佛隔着那绵绵细细的雨帘

看似那么的靠近，看似没有界限

但是每一次想要靠近，才发现心却是那么的遥远

风在雨中继续吹拂，但却没有吹动我的心

雨丝继续迷离，点点滴滴

我知道抓不住也看不清

偶尔泼溅在我的脸上，那么的细小，却那么沁冷沁心

雨将要停

视线朦胧变得清晰

窗上点点，雨的痕迹

在我心里，是留不住你离去的身影

**写于午后的一场雨**

29/5/2010, 6.19pm

THIS IS IT

Just watched the last show of MJ “This Is It”, I could feel that I was deeply touched and it's amazing.

No matter any single step of performance, single note of music, any song, any action of dance, movement, background music, tempo, guitar, rhythm or atmosphere, I can feel that he’s trying as hard as any singer can do to bring, perhaps, the best show of his life to the world. He’s really a music genius, always inspire people not only by his talents in music but also his integrity, perfectionism, patience and humbleness, making everything to be perfect, bringing the best to audiences and his fans. That’s what a best singer should have, he possesses it and even to fullest extent. He’s indisputably a music genius, he knows every single change of his song and music, to bring an all-new feel to audiences, he always brings up creative ideas on stage to make his show looks more creative and unique. I can see that, his music, his show and himself, will be timeless no matter how many year passes.

It’s really a big loss no matter for the world or God without letting him to perform his last show, it could be considered the best show I’ve ever seen. The message he wants to bring to the world is to bring the LOVE to the world once again, to bring the awareness to the world to take good care of our natural environment as this is last and unique gift from God, we’re blessed, the only way to treasure the gift is to love it. He also says that he loves the planet we live, the ocean, the greenery, tree and everything, he loves the changing colour of leaf and respect the nature because it's amazing but, unfortunately, it's dying now. The wrong message in our mind is "take care of our environment is other's matter", but, who's the one? Actually we're the one, it should start from us but no other.

He’s genius and brightest ever superstar in the world no matter now and then, however, he’s unbelievably humble especially the way he speaks to everyone. What he always says from the show are just “thank you”, “God bless you”, I love you” and “that’s great”. Can you see such a superstar of the world can be that humble to anyone that’s entirely different from any other superstars do?

Every dancer, worker, singer and crew of his show are the top and best performers from all around the world are selectively filtered for his breathtaking concert feeling so proud and moved to be one of the performers of MJ’s show. MJ inspires everyone of the world for at least two generations for over 20 years on the stage. He’s world reknown music genius, to perform on the stage with MJ is the dream of every dancer and singer in the world, to dance and sing with the King of Pop, they feel like they’ve already reached the peak of their life and career. And they'll be named after MJ in history.

When he’s singing the most famous songs “Beat It”, “Billie Jean” and one of the songs of Jackson 5 “I’ll be there”, I was really touched by his voice. If flower needs water, human needs love, cooking needs heart, his songs are fully filled with his love to the world.

Undeniably, he’s left the world, however, his love to the world is everlasting because he’s the King of Pop forever.

~love lives forever~

天下有情人

天下有情人
词:林夕曲:周华健编曲:洪敬尧
演唱:周华健齐豫
合:爱怎么做怎么错怎么看怎么难怎么教人死生相随
爱是一种不能说只能尝的滋味试过以后不醉不归
等到红颜憔悴它却依然如此完美
等到什么时候我们才能够体会
合:爱是一朵六月天飘下来的雪花还没结果已经枯萎
爱是一种擦不乾烧不完的眼泪还没凝固已经成灰
等到情丝吐尽它才出现那一回
等到红尘残碎它才让人双宿双飞
有谁懂得个中滋味
周:爱是迷迷糊糊天地初开的时候那已经盛放的玫瑰
齐:爱是踏破红尘望穿秋水只因为爱过的人不说后悔
周:爱是一生一世一次一次的轮回不管在东南和西北
齐:爱是一段一段一丝一丝的是非合:教有情人再不能够说再会


第一次听到这首歌的时候全身的毛孔几乎都站起来了，不是因为难听，而是这首歌真的像天籁一样的美丽。一定要提一提的是词出自香港天王天后御用写词人林夕的鬼斧神工，曲则出自周华建。这原本是香港无线拍摄的金庸武侠巨著《神雕侠侣》的主题曲。单看词就让人震撼，这世上尽然有人能够写出如此惊心动魄美丽如画的词来描写神雕大侠杨过与小龙女这段可歌可泣让人痛哭流涕却又惊世骇俗的爱情。活在现在这个火箭时代什么都讲速度，相恋到分手跟吃顿饭一样快的年代可能已经没有人能理解爱到底是地球产物还是外星人不小心留在地球的东西。

多年前年少轻狂的我曾经就同性恋的课题在forum同其他人掀起精彩舌战，对方是报持坚决反对的态度，而我则转载了这首歌词上去，诉说既然爱情可以跨越时间、空间、距离、世俗的眼光，那为什么不包括性别呢？爱就是爱上了就从来不说后悔不说再会的。我的音乐老师也曾经说过，我们现代的年轻人又怎么能够了解以前的人对爱的执著？他引述了一段歌词大概是如此“爱是一条手帕拭我的泪，擦你的血”，当时很多人说这样好像不是很卫生，可是想想真正的爱就算流多少血多少泪又有谁会在乎呢？

从小就沉浸在金庸大侠的武侠小说世界里的我却完全可以理解那段“问世间情为何物，直叫人生死相许”的恋情。虽然遭世人极力反对甚至用尽手段迫害打压，可是真正的感情却被这些险阻困难锻炼得更加坚强。真正的爱情跨越时间、空间、距离、阻隔，十六年的痴等最后终于能见到自己就算舍去性命也要拼死守护的人。爱情不是三言两语，不是只字片言，看了神雕侠侣才能知道，爱其实是生死相许、爱是等到红尘残碎它们依然完美、爱哪怕是一生一世一次一次的轮回有情人永远不会说后悔永远不会说再会。
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以下所附加的是中国所拍摄的《神雕侠侣》由黄晓明和刘亦菲主演张靓颖演唱主题曲的《天下无双》新旧版的主题曲同样让人心碎。短片中的杨过就算成为名扬天下的神雕大侠，无论在广阔的荒漠上还是高手如云的武林都能潇洒仗剑行走江湖，可是如果没有小龙女的相伴，纵然天下之大，斯人独憔悴又能去何处呢？如果有你相伴，无垠荒漠，仗剑而行，也是甜蜜的流浪。

天下无双

演唱：张靓颖

穿越红尘的悲欢惆怅
和你贴心的流浪
刺透遍野的青山和荒凉
有你的梦伴着花香飞翔
今生因你痴狂此爱天下无双
剑的影子水的波光
只是过往是过往
今生因你痴狂此爱天下无双
啊.....
如果还有贴心的流浪
枯萎了容颜难以忘
难遗忘……

荒漠的夜晚

不知为什么，从小到大我就很容易被很多的片尾曲所感动，可能就像我喜欢夕阳一样，所有事物的结束都会让我感慨。尤记得小时候每次周末放学回家总有数不完的卡通片可以观看，只要吃饱了午饭就可以舒服的坐下来欣赏卡通片。我从小到大所观看的卡通片几乎全部都是日本的卡通片，日本卡通片不论是剧情、画工还是配乐几乎都是无懈可击的，从主题曲、故事主线、旁线、背景配乐到插曲、片尾曲都经过精心设计，所以我喜欢的大多都是日本卡通片的片尾曲。以前以为看过了听过了的片尾曲就只能永远把它留在美好的记忆里再也找不到了，可是多亏了Youtube让我又可以重温旧梦那些让我心碎的歌曲。


下面分享的是我喜爱的卡通片《海贼王》的片尾曲Glory 歌手Speed之一的上原多香子。一开始在广阔无垠的荒漠上只有比比公主和卡鲁鸭孤独的矗立在风沙吹拂的夜晚，担心着她的祖国阿拉巴斯坦的安危下，眼前的风沙模糊了地平线，在广大的荒漠的夜晚，只有自己孤独一人，四周极目远望似乎没有尽头，疲倦的心不知几时可以找到避风的港湾，几乎要被这种无力与无助击退。可是就在心降到冰点，夜最黑的时候，路飞一行人出现了，这一刻东方开始泛白露出第一丝曙光，带来消失已久的温暖。有他们的陪伴，终于再次鼓起勇气踏上艰难的旅程，因为他们是伙伴。

人生在世，有许多的风风雨雨险阻困难，人情冷暖，我们每个人其实孤独的站在冷风刺骨的荒漠在漆黑的夜晚。告诉自己要坚强的继续旅程，可是却那么的孤独和沮丧，朋友就像是这时的温暖曙光，陪伴你坚强，就因为有了伙伴，所以旅程不再孤单。

我的部落格

写部落格对我来说一直像是写日记一样，从一千到现在对写日记的概念就是一支笔，一本厚厚的日记本，一页一页的白纸被手中的笔写下的一字一句覆盖了，就像刚出生的婴儿一样头脑一片空白，可是随着时间的流逝，人长大了，经历的风风雨雨是是非非变成了名可心里不可磨灭的记忆，把它一字一句的写下来，虽然寥寥数字，但字里行间却蕴藏了对少的故事。写日记在我印象中就是如此刻板单调，纸、笔和写故事的人，或者是偶尔夹杂在日记本里的照片而已。可是由于科技和网际网络的发达，写日记已经变得不单纯，除了手指敲动的键盘取代了手中的笔，电脑银幕取代了泛黄的纸，让全世界每一个人都可以分享你生活的点点滴滴的部落格也可以让你随意的永远留住你喜爱的所有照片，现在还可以分享所有你喜欢的短片。本来单调的书写方式已经被淘汰，任何人可以自己编写属于自己的“有声书日记”，任何感人肺腑或让你痛哭流涕的音乐或短片都可以和文字一起出现在部落格上。

回想以前每当聆听一首触动我心弦的歌曲或是音乐，还是看了一出让我痛哭流涕的影片或短片，我能写在日记里的就只是那模糊的印象和感觉，从来没有想过终于有一天我喜欢的短片和感动我的音乐可以和我的文字一起出现在一个版面里，这种感觉有些百感交集，但现在的小学中学朋友可能会笑我是不是从山洞出来的人类，这些都是理所当然的功能，有什么好感动的？不管任何人怎么说，这就是我从小到大的生活方式，对任何所有看过的短片、故事、音乐，只有曾经感动过我的，我都想要把它保存起来，因为那可能就是我存在在那一个时空（时间和空间）才会有的感觉和悸动。所以今天从Youtube搜寻了许多曾经让我感动过的短片和音乐，一次过把他们都放进我的日记本里，变成我生命曾经走过的每一段路的美好回忆。

不期然

不期然 又走在那条路上
下过雨 天很蓝
像是沉浸在一杯名叫“夏威夷”的蓝色香槟里
在黄昏时刻浅尝

路灯闪亮迷茫的光
仿佛时空这一刻为谁停止流转
宁静如一池湖水
我此刻迷惘
暮色 夕阳
交织成深刻回忆的照片泛黄
湿润空气弥漫
刹那 冰轮西斜
遍地银光
是谁再次触动心弦
那一个失眠的夜晚

Lonely Journey-Chp4

Back to the real world from the flashback.

“10 years passed,” she suddenly became solemn, “how could you never ever call me after graduation?” She asked a bit angrily. “You promised me, you’d call me and we’d keep contact even after graduation no matter where we were, but…how come…past 10 years…I lost your contact.” She asked disappointedly, and I could however feel the deep disappointment for the past 10 years.

The tears rolling in her eyes.

“I…I’m so sorry about that,” I was in speechless stun, never did I expect, to my surprise, losing contact with her for 10 years could be a huge regret for me, maybe, for the rest of my life, however, I only came to know that it should be both of us.

“Listen to me, I never ever mean not to contact you after our graduation ceremony,” I tried to calm down myself, but, it seemed that I failed, my speech looked as if a guy trying to explain to his girlfriend how could he come to their appointment an hour late, but mine could be even worse, ten year.

“On the day after our graduation ceremony, I wrote down your address as well as your house number,” it made me recall an unhappy experience, I continued, “I kept everything in my treasure box, to which I treated like my real treasure chest, however, after the tour with my cousin, my parents decided to move house and threw away all those things they deemed unnecessary including my treasure box.” My tone turned to be more emotional and mixed with my deep disappointment.

“I tried to look for my treasure box as it’s not the place I keep your contact and address, but my autograph album with all my friends’ contacts and… our precious memory,” I stopped awhile and continued, “I cried…”, my tone turned to be lower as if I wanted to sob, “the tried my best to look back my friend, however, it’s a prank from God, I lost…I lost all the contacts of my dear friends, and…you.” I looked at her glittering eyes with sincerity.

“And…and how, then…?” She was shocked in disbelief after listened my dramatic story to which full of ups and downs. “I never ever mean not to contact you,” I stepped toward her and held on her shoulders, looking at her innocent eyes. “On the other hand, losing your contact is my biggest regret in my life.” She’s surprised, what I did was exactly like a guy tried his best to explain to his girlfriend to beg for forgiveness, and, she’s just met me all of a sudden after 10 years departure, everything sounded weird but fantastic.

(to be continued)